Blog.

My three-month, one-season marker came and went without a blog post, and I've finally got through the backlog of stuff on my camera.  I'm still finding this project incredibly difficult, and I think the madness present in the pieces of the past week speaks for state of mind right now.  I am mainly struggling to sit down and write, and the inner critics in my head are shouting very loud.  However, watching back over the last week of videos makes me realise it really doesn't matter what I create.  I can make anything!  I can let the slamming of a door be part of the project, as in this piece.  Or my crazy dreams about a barnyard brawl (Filter (II)), or picking out random notes on the piano (New Year's Even Aquarium), or making strange noises with my voice through effects pedals (The Grey Lady), or simply stringing a bunch of nonsense words together (Up Glasses!).  These pieces all felt like a last resort, when my creative anxiety wouldn't let me make anything else, but they are legitimate creative expressions that capture my mood and mindset.